What If

I'm sorry baba...I thought we have more time...I thought we still have time...It's not that I didn't think about this...but I didn't think that It is going to happen so soon...so sudden...so unexpecred...I have some crazy thoughts that I can not get rid of...I'm sorry Baba Jaan...It's not fair that I feel this way...It's not fair that I blame him for how I feel...It's not fair...that's why i didn't tell him anything yet...

All the "What If's" are killing me... سال نوتون مبارك!...